I am content!!

It is hard to believe that I would ever feel this way. I am content with where I am. I have enough to keep myself sane and busy and I am finally able to stop thrashing about worrying that I am not doing enough.
I am spending my days working my way through my vision of the grant and it is working out well. I am on my 4th figure of 14 although I know that there will be more. It is a long list and I have many ideas. The museum needs my stuff, the boutique has called for more jewelery and I have been juried into a doll circle and an art store who need my my things as soon as possible.
The Lyrica I cut back and I must say it is night and day to gabapentin. My family is taking me seriously because I am taking myself seriously for once and it feels really really good.
I think that I am grownup. .....finally.